Well I won’t get to wear any pretty shoes for a while, that’s for sure. :(
My podiatrist took another round of X-rays, and I am definitely going to need to have surgery (cue the internal panic attack). I myself have a bit of a warped sense of humor, so when my podiatrist walked into the room after reviewing my X-rays and announced “The bones in your foot are doing a Spock.” (along with the accompanying hand gesture) I couldn’t help but burst into laughter. That definitely helped to relieve some of my stress. At least temporarily.
You have to be able to find the humor in the situations life throws at you. I for one would not have survived all my experiences if I didn’t have the sometimes off the wall, just a teensy bit twisted sense of humor that I do.
Anyway, the doc also confirmed that my total recovery time would likely be about two months. That of course, caused my panic to resurface. I still can’t wrap my head around two months. I’m unsure whether crutches or a boot will be used. I’ll find that out when I go to my pre-op appointment, which is scheduled for this coming week, and surgery a couple of weeks after that.
To pour salt in the wound, my job (and that of my co-workers) has been halted indefinitely. There’s no telling when or if it will be brought back. So, I’m out of work, and desperately searching for legitimate remote work that I can still do from home. The job market isn’t that great, I’ll tell you.
I’m going to be point blank honest with you all here. I’m stressed out, but more than anything I’m kind of scared. I know, that probably sounds silly to most people, but it’s how I feel. I try not to worry, but sometimes I really just suck at not doing so. I’m nervous about the times I’ll be home alone trying to take care of the animals (the puppy in particular) and the house. I’m nervous about the idea of recovery taking a total of two months. I’m nervous about not finding any new work. I’m just flat out nervous.
When it rains, it really does pour. Despite that, I’m hanging in there. I have my moments where I flip out a little bit, but I’m really ready to get all of this done and over with. I’ll certainly update on this again soon. Cross your fingers for my sanity to stay intact! :)
Links to my other posts regarding my Morton’s Neuroma experience: